Please help... Psychiatrist and GP help needed?

I saw my GP in January. I got a referral for a psychiatrist. I brought the referral to the hospital and that hospital only offers services in French ..so they sent my referral to another hospital in Montreal which offers English services. I haven't gotten a call even for an appointment. I don't even know what hospital they sent my referral to and I am ticked off. I am a 22 year old single mom of my almost 4 year old daughter and I need help. I have too much on my plate right now. I attempted suicide about 8 years ago, and I was on the brink of death, and I feel like it wouldn't of mattered if I had died that night. I love my daughter but I am in need of help. Even my daughter's therapist tells me that I have to try and take care of myself more, but myself clothes, go shopping, go out. And I can't. I don't know why. I can't. I was ually abused by my grandfather form the age of 11-13 and he used to give me money so that I wouldn't tell anyone. And I can't shop for myself. I don't feel pretty enough. I don't feel like I deserve any good to happen to me. I feel horrible. I am tired a lot and just drained emotionally. I see my GP on Wednesday and I'm wondering if I am just wasting my tiem with this stupid medical system. I like my GP..he's nice and he listens but he's not a psychiatrist and even he wants me to be seen professionally. It never ends. What can I do for myself because I am just falling apart.